*How long can I call him "baby?"
Thursday, June 09, 2011
The fingers must be educated, the thumb is born knowing.
My baby* hasn't sucked his thumb for four days. Not for lack of want. The thumb is ravaged with saliva induced eczema. Cracked, swollen and bleeding. We've kept it covered in ointment and a bandage. He woke this morning at 5 am and started to cry. Sobbing. It was coming from his heart. I truly think he finally realized that he has to let go. He was crying out of heartache. The outpouring of tears lasted until 7:15 when he finally fell asleep in my arms, entirely spent. I understood. It's so hard for me to let go of things that hurt me yet comfort me. I'm too familiar with that aching heart. I think the expression of grief has allowed Cole to move on. To find another [safe] source of comfort. There are so many lessons my children will teach me.